- Monday 13th April
- April 14th, 2009
So i actually feel loadss beter than i did this time yesterday, just generally more positive =D.
Made up with my mum, kind of anyway we just gradually started speaking little bits again so by tomorrow i think everything will be back to normal!
Still havent heard from the boyfriend, and dont think im going to either. I texted him for the first time since friday.. just a causal kind of text.. how stuff going and that.. no relationship talk! still didnt hear anything back! hopefully will be going out to town on wednesday with the girls.. really hoping i bump into him and get to talk to him.. the plan is though to wait now see if i see him on wednesday night, and if i dont maybe give him a call on thursday!! not going to try anything before then.. dont want to push it!! what time to do it tho? =S dont want to do it when hes in work.. dont want to leave it too late incase hes out/ drinking with mates? dont know if he will be on an early like 8-3 or late like 1-9 =S
And day one of the fast.. well i kind of messed up on that! but not terribly.. i had a few slices of sandwich chicken, a pickeled egg, and a few mouthfulls of soup - althogether approx 100 cals.. and then the guilt started, i had a bowl of 100 cal soup in front of me.. it didnt even taste nice i wasnt hungry or enjoying it so i stoped after a few spoonfulls and i purged straight away, so im hoping i got all of the calories out of me!!
Hopefully now tomorrow i will rember that feeling of guilt if i feel tempted to break the fast, i dont want to have to purge, ive got a sore neck now think ive pulled a muscle so hopefully this will stop me from breaking the fast tomorrow!
Did about an hr and a half work out..clubland work it out!! was first time ive done it as gym membership has just run out =( didnt compare to an intense gym workout but was pretty gd.. will wait and see how my muscles feel tomorrow before i judge!!